First of all, I’d like to thank you for clicking the link and take your precious time reading this. Hah! Sounds like writing one of my work e-mails. Because it’s basically showing gratitude towards everything and everyone. Wait. Isn’t that how life suppose to be?
OK. Let’s go back to today’s subject.
I.am.babytopaz. I’ll try not to divert too far from the subject, which if you know me, I tend to do that very often and very easily.
So, let’s begin.
Perhaps I’ll move this post to a separate page one day, something titled About Me, but as I’m still pretty new to the community, it’s only right for me to introduce myself, officially.
Babytopaz, is not my name, if you wonder. It’s the nickname I got myself years ago because I didn’t feel like revealing too much personal details on this platform where things could go out of control sometimes. Goods and bads. You could name all the goods about the internet but it doesn’t make the bads better.
Baby: Because I like to be called ‘baby’. Because baby is the pure and innocent though they could be handful at times. Because ‘baby’ sounds cute.
Topaz: There are 2 birthstone for the month of November; Citrine and Topaz. And ‘topaz’ sounds better with ‘baby’ to me.
So yea. Babytopaz.
Be yourself, everyone else is taken.
I’ve read this quote somewhere sometime ago. And I remember loving it the moment I read. Then it popped up again to me recently. And while I was pampering myself with massage yesterday, well, I thought I was suppose to relax my mind to enjoy the massage to the max, my mind couldn’t stop running. So instead of resisting, I chose to take a look at what’s going on in my mind.
It was like a few channel playing in my head at the same time. So I tried to get things organized by categorizing them, and then tackle them one by one. One of the things that was running in my mind was this, my blog.
It started with I got to really into YouTube videos last November. I started with makeup and then some Facebook post introduced me to the world of bullet journal. So I went on YouTube and start watching videos about it. Since then, my YouTube homepage is filled with makeup channels and bullet journalling videos. I thought all I was learning was makeup skills and decorating journals. But it was so much more.
As much as I enjoy being inspired by all the successful people on YouTube, whether it’s their makeup skills or their creativity in journals, I was inspired to inspire. I wish I could be one of them, bringing positivity to the world, sharing thoughts, and create happiness to people who watch or read them. I used to post in another blog, where I shared my everyday stories, but it did not have a theme, so my readers were mainly my family and friends (because I don’t update Facebook status or Tweet so often that report my daily movement). So I created this blog. The initial idea was to blog with a theme (or themes) that would attract readers, people with same interests. I have yet to delete my old blog although most of the posts don’t mean much to me anymore (those are still my history and reasons I am who I am today), some of the posts still mean so much to me (I like to have it somewhere so when I’m feeling sentimental, I could go back to it). If you scroll back far enough, you will be able to see posts from years ago.
And then, I came up with a few categorise or topics that I’d like to share in the blog; Movies and Makeup/ Beauty, and a format to stick to (I like things look organized and neat). Because people have so much to comment on everything and people rely so much on reviews nowadays before going to cinema or making a purchase, I thought I would be one of them who shares my review. In that way, I could inspire and it would sound cool (to influence people based on things that I said).
I thought it was a cool idea and I was motivated at the very beginning. I would take pictures, do makeup swatches, insert ingredients, include movie summaries, try to give every info I could find on the internet to ‘complete’ my posts and feel like a pro. But this practise did not last me for more than a month.
As I was having my massage yesterday, I thought of posting another post, on a movie I watched about a month ago. I love it so much and I wanted to write something about it. But the thought of having to look into the details (which I don’t personally enjoy so much doing it), I kept that task open yet uncompleted. And then I watched more movies which I love all of them, and now I left with more open yet uncompleted tasks.
So I thought, is that something I really want? Dragging myself to post with the format I’d like to follow but don’t enjoy doing it, because I wanna inspire others, which I can’t even inspire myself?
I mean, I totally respect bloggers who to do their researches before throwing something out. It is a lot of work yet they are determine to give as much as they could as long as they think it helps and inspires. But I need to start posting first! If I can’t even sit down and start posting, it’s pointless to talk about helping and inspiring. I might not be sharing makeup ingredients or movie summaries from the official websites, but I’ll be sharing my review on products I’ve tried or movies I’ve watched, and everything in that post will be my words, instead of some copy and paste facts which could be found elsewhere on the internet. Does it make sense?
Then this is going to become like my old blog.I thought.
Not necessarily. I just need to be more specific, by knowing the subject of my posts and stay focused, instead of reporting everything without any direction. Yes, be specific and stay focused is the key.
Oh ya, did I mention I’ll be posting every Tuesday and Friday? Because it’s important to have a schedule too. Topics would be on things that I find interesting in my life. Anything, that I find interesting.
So yea, that’s about it. I knew this is going to be a lengthy one because that’s the way I tell stories, there was even a story behind why it is I.am.babytopaz instead of just babytopaz itself. Just imagine that.
Thank you once again for staying around, and read until this very point. We shall see how things go and there might be (very likely) changes from time to time (just like the concept of bullet journal) for a simple reason; change is the only constant. Feel free to comment anytime and any constructive feedback would be very much appreciated. I’m so excited for this. Till then!