So I’ve just found out I have about 20minutes to write before I reach Milan Malpensa Airport.
The initial plan was to do it like a self conscious streamline on my Moleskine limited edition Beauty A5 lined notebook, but the bus ride is a little too bumpy to do so, so here I am.
I always say I don’t know how to begin but I always end up with long winded introduction.
I was suppose to finish my Girls’ trip to Milan day 3 and final draft this morning. Then I felt like I was just telling stories of what happened on day 3. It was a good trip, a good day 3, but do I need to tell a story on what happened? What do I get from it? Will I come back and read that someday to remind me what happened? How does that improve my life quality? I know I wasn’t writing for my readers, which I don’t think there’s any, honestly, I was writing it for myself. But, why was I writing it when I couldn’t answer the above questions? Was I writing for the sake of writing? Or was I writing so I could mark of the task on my to-do list? I’m confused.
I went thru some photos of that trip, reminded me I should plan another trip to bring mom and sister. We should have more girls time together. Photos or not, blog post or not, I guess is the memories of spending quality time that matters. The memories will be ours, no one else. That is what matters.
With that, I’ll still complete my post, well, just in case I want to have something to look back. But I will constantly remind myself the purpose of me writing, a memory for myself (and mom and sis if they would like to read), and that’s it.
I used to write more spontaneously, what changed?
Is the idea of being presentable (so-called) that looks good on instagram and facebook, try to make things as ‘perfect’ as possible, then I saw this video called Done is better than perfect. Start before you are ready! by Aileen Xu, or her YouTube name Lavendaire. So it reminds me why am I being inconsistent in getting things done. Being a (occasional) perfectionist, sometimes I like to make things perfect and sometimes I just don’t. And when I don’t, probably I’ll get things done quicker. The result might not be the one I’ll be proud of, but I’ve got things done, rather than keep thinking I must make sure everything is perfect. And what I could do is to review my result and learn how to make things better (just like when I’m experimenting with my bullet journal). But that doesn’t mean I’m not giving out my best, that is actually the best I could do at that point of time, with the limited resources I have at the moment.
So yeah, that’s my learn for today. My 20 minutes is up. I’m gonna label this post as another today’s learn. After all, life is a learning process. We learn from everyone and we learn everyday. Keep an open mind and keep learning!